just for a laugh

 um so it has been a couple of days since my last post annnnnddddd um I kinda failed psychology and biology a level mock and cried at work cause my boss had a massive argument with some of her staff and kicked them out the pub and for some reason that made me cry. oh well to be fair it was very busy and I had had a really rough shift and I think it was just the icing on the cake. I also don't do well with arguing either I never have it always really really upsets me I can lie. it might be cause of how loud it is I don't know but yeh im fine now which is good. try tired that is currently 1;40 am I finished work at 12am and I have to be back up to work at 12pm ahhhhhh. honestly save me from thus hell Alright  bye

 hi, I decided to start this kind of as a diary cause my therapist said its good. thinking about it I kinda don't want anyone to read it, but I think it will help me categorise my thoughts. I don't know but I might as well try lol. so first off I have actually been doing quite well recently, cut down smoking, having showers every day and stuff until today aha. I had to come home from school early cause I had a panic attack. I think where I went wrong was that I thought I was completely better when I might actually not be... buttttttt am I gonna accept that I still have issues, probs not cause where is the fun in that. altho I kinda am accepting an issue with this which is good.  anyways gonna go now  as a side note please mind spelling I am dyslexic  byeeee