hey so this past week or whatever hasn't been great ngl. I am away with my family for my mum's 50th and it is so much social interaction I just feel so numb now and it is the absolute worst, and just to top it off someone I used to be best friends with is like making an effort in terms of him but not anyone else. altho tbf he makes it so difficult to be friends with him, he is heavily addicted to drugs, yet he says he isn't. I used to stay up until 7am after him taking 13 pingers just to make sure he doesn't die through the night, but I really care about him and want to make sure he is ok but idk if it is too much for me yk. ahh I can't Jesus lord, and cause its my mums 50th I will have to act happy or I will ruin it for her and my ad will get pissed. please someone come save me from this hell, and when I say save I mean kill lol. joking dwwwwww altho am I, yes, no hahaha. oh well I will be ok in the end just gotta push through

anyways bye

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